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Unncessary tension....I know this but still have

I am in Dubai for three weeks with my in laws. It is my wife’s birth place. She always gets goose booms when she hears about Dubai and visit here is a heaven for her.
It is second time we are coming here after our marriage, first time after little stars arrival. Since it’s in laws place my wife has an expectation to take some rest from take care the baby whole alone at home.
Before I came here, my father gave his friends contact details and asked me to contact everyone; if possible I have to visit them personally. When I came last time also he asked me to do this. I did that some people were positive and others were ok. No bad experience though.
But I always have a tension before I call them. Even the same thing is continuing... I am thinking that may be these people will be think why am I calling them. Most of the time I am confuse about the subjects to talk. They will ask how am I. 10 times in my 5 minutes conversation. This entire topic less talks creates me unnecessary tension. But I have to call all the people in the list. I know I can talk casually but always I fail to do that. Some people make me comfortable but others they want me to lead the conversation. Here I always get issue. I will shiver and start using the same work again and again. But I love to contact all, make some socialising and all.
I don’t know what is happening. It is something every common for me. I don’t know why? Think it is because I don’t have much social chat or I don’t have opportunity to talk to clients. My job requires on chat with internal stake holders and I take this very casually. This is the main reason I don’t get much respect within the company. I am involved in most of the activities happening in the organisation but when it comes to visibility and recognition people think that I am a down to earth person, let me stand in down itself!! I have to change; I have to start using the words I should be using at official level. I am not good at it but I have to learn this.

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