Do not cheat yourself.

Do not cheat yourself! That is the dialogue from my father when I justify myself. I didn’t understand that dialogue when I was kid, my small life explain to me why I should nt cheat myself.

Dear TMs and Guest, Good Morning,  I always wanted to be successful but I am fearful to take risk. When play my Table tennis at office, I realized it. I learned to smash the ball but in the real game I was scared to hit it. My mind asked this, can I hit on the table without hitting the net? This is my life always, I have experimented with my life, but I have this self doubt when I have to smash. I am here to practice myself to live in present without worrying am I be successful or not.

I was born in early ’80, in Nov. I am a Sagittarian. My wife says, I have all the characteristic of a Sagittarian, not sure in what angle. When I was child, during vacation we all gathered in my mom’s house. We all grand children’s gathered, the elder grand children look after small one. 2 of my elder cousins had to look after other 8 + younger one.  Our demands were so much it seems. 2 of the elders didn’t have any time to do anything. Then they got an idea to buy balloons for us to take some break. But that was a headache for them, we all asked them to blow the ballons. Finally they took one pin and pressed the ballon. All kid including me started enjoying. My elder cousin find breaking ballon is good for them rather than blowing. All kids broke their ballon, Finally my turn come. Everyone asked to break my ballon. I said, I had fun with breaking your ballons, I am happy with that and let me keep my ballons. This story is still famous with all my cousins even now.

My schooling was peaceful; always I have score optimum mark to pass the exams. I had a very decent image among my teachers. They used to wonder why I had less mark. But some teachers used to wonder why am I passing year after year. They knew my actual color. That was a realization for me, what is the point of having a good name and not able achieve anything in my life. I started taking things seriously.

I have joined college and take up sports seriously. Since I was sports student… sport was equally important to me as studies. This multitasking really helped me in my career than any other academic lesson. My favorite game was Kabadi. It is game really need team work and unknowingly I learned to a good team player.

Then came to Bangalore for my higher studies and become serious at studies. Got a job in Reuters, first time in my life started getting up regularly at 3 o clock to reach office in APAC shift. This is a wonderful thing. If I have some responsibility I can awake on time or be on time. Else I will be on bed till noon.

I had a dream to talk like a fluent public speaker from small age. That desire, moved up to a great extend and I have started doing toastmaster and become a competent communicator. Then I remember my fathers shout, don’t cheat yourself. Though I am a competent communicator… I haven’t reached the bench mark what I wanted. So I wanted give this ice breaker again and practice my public speaking !! I request everyone to give me a standing ovation for breaking my ice again.