My first blog....

Sumani is jumpy little girl....who gets excited when she is happy. When she is excited run and jump like a jumpy doll. One day, an holiday, her grand parents were in town and her parents thought to visit a mausem. Mausem had all the beautiful things sumani had heard in her stories. All these things made sumani super excited and happy. The moment she reached masuem sumani started running and explore each sessions in the mausem. She was with her grand father. Grand father could not run behind her when she become superexcited. Grand father asked her not run without holding his hand. She said i am so happy, because i have my grand pa with me. She she screamed , i want to run like a jumpy rabbit because i want see all these things in this beautiful  masuem. Grand mother called sumani,s father and asked him to run behind jumpy sumani. Sumani father grabed sumanis hand and run a long. After some time even father could not catch up with sum...

Maggy find friends and add more fun to her childhood.... Maggy stayed with her parents in beautiful apartment in the   city. They could hear vehicle sound from the road all day and night. Maggy loved watching her cartoons and tv pfograms all day. She wants to cartoons while eating...as soon as she wake up... before she go to sleep....and of course in between wake up and sleep too... she had a lot of fun in front tv. She learned to watch cartoons from laptop, fathers and mothers phone.. She like watching than doing anything else. More than playing or eating.... Without proper food and play...poor maggy fall sick oneday. Parents became worried and take her to a doctor.... doctor looked at her and asked her likes and dislikes.. Maggy said i like cartoons .... i dont like playing... I like cartoons .... i dont like eating.... Doctor asked.... too  much cartoons? Doctor scolded maggys parents.... said... no more  c...

Maggy have so many favorate things to do.... She loves going to swimming pool with her father... She loves to watch her favourate cartyoon... She loves painting.... She loves reading her story book with her mother... But playing in the park she loves the most.... She likes swinging in the swing for long time.... She loves sliding in the slide for long time... She laugh and run in the park.... When she starts swing another children has wait for very long time to get a chance. Her mother tells her to leave swing.... when other children comes to swing... But little maggy was no bother leave the swing... This made other children to feel sad.... Her mother told her about the importance of sharing... Then maggy with hasitation allowed other children to swing... But after some time other children came to maggy and gave shake hand.... Then maggy got so many friends... They all started sharing their toys and all playing items...

Sumani is a little girl, who loves run, play in the park, swim in the pool and do all possible enjoyment for her age. One day, when she went to park with her Father, she saw a group of big boys and girls playing running race. She excited to join them. The biggest boy, referee said the rule. They all have to stand in the line and listen to his whistle to start the race. They have to run from the line to a wall in the opposite side. Then touch the wall, and then come back to line. Whoever reaches the line first will be the WINNER. She stood on the line with big boys and girl to run. Referee blow the whistle and started to run. Little Sumani could compete with big boys and girls. By the time she touches the wall in the opposite side. Big boys and girls have completed the race. But she didn’t stop it, she continued the run and completed the run at last. Referee asked, do you want to run again? Everyone, Big boy,  Big girls and Little sumani said, Yes, we want. All stood...

I met him I met him after many years I met him for no reason I met him accidentally I met him and talk a lot I met him and that was a refresher I met him when I was busy at work Even then I had spend more time with him I knew I didnt have anything to gain I knew that my work is pending I knew that he is not going to get me anything But I didnt want to let go that moment with him I met him and talk for hours without any drop of expectation or greed That made me happy That was recollection of good memories we have shared years ago in a small village school How many friend I have created in the busy metro? Whom I will find happiness from an accident meeting after so many years?

I feel so happy today as I had a great weekend. I had gone out with friends, had good time with family. What more reason for me to be happy? our happiness has very same characteristic of nature. It is like season. a nice breeze with a dim sunny day is my favorite but there no guarantee that it permanent. no it is sure that it will change. the best way to survive in all season is love all season and see the beauty in each season. I like rain, because I love the smell of soil when the rain hit first time. I like summer, the time used wait for my long vacations in school and now its the memory of those good days. more importantly I dont have to carry umbrella when I go out. Winter my favorite of all seasons, I love to sleep till the sun hit my face. But it is not that happy time in all the seasons in my life. I hate full time rain because I cant go out, I hate sunny days because of sweaty days. I hate cold days because it makes me lazy person and I hate many many things in all season. ...

I used to ask this question myself, my friends and mentors... Same question has been asked my direct reports during their 1-1 and what is that key behavior someone have to do showcase  to grow in the organisation? I didnt get any answer for myself. But I have given a lot of gyan for my direct reports and made them confuse to the core. There are few people tried and stopped. There are few people tried and come to back. They said, my lack of discipline, I could not do. Are you doing that? I gave a smile for that question. Advise can be given by anyone. But importantly, There are many way to grow in your career or personal life. most of us know what would that do? If you want to reduce fat, do you know how? I know how? but my waist size is growing and growing.... it is the disciple, take us to act on our plans. In case anyone is still not sure to be a successful employee or build a successful career. I have an answer. Imagine, you are sick and you go to a doctor. you have ...

I bought a parrot.... I bought a cage for the parrot.... I did everything to make the parrot comfortable... but I put the parrot in the cage... I fed the parrot.... I thought her call my name... I am used to hear my name in the morning... My mornings have a meaning.... That took me to different level of person... The person I wanted... The person I dream of.... I still awake with my parrots call... I earned the ability to do things for parrot... I have decorated the cage with gold... The cage made of gold... But I noticed my parrot... Is she happy?  She is calling me still... Is she satisfied ? That made me think... I saw the pain in her face... I saw the dryness in her voice... I saw the weakness in her smile.... I have open the door of her golden cage.... I want to free you up... Parrot  is not able to walk through the doors... Parrot worried about her duty... Parrot still awake me... from her open cage... with no energy no enthusiasm.... ...

One thing I want to do everything is writing... Type down my thought in to Microsoft word... The lonely moments in my life... Filled with thoughts... My expression of love... My expression of life... My expression of success mantra.... I impress myself for that wonderful forms ideas... Wonderful puzzling with words.... Wonderful thought process... Wonderful flow of my words and thoughts... I envy at myself... Badly wanted to record my mind.... Always I wanted to express it... I keep it for sometime to record it.... Now is that sometime arrived... To copy my thoughts flowed... and surprised me in the morning... while having bath... while driving to office... while press my office lift.... I am blank.... I am blank.... to express myself to this blog.... to keep for my beautiful daughter... when grow up....to make her proud about her father.... Sorry dear... I am failed recollect that beautiful expressions.... Sorry dear.... I dont have any reason to make you pr...

Love made me think... i have another body attached...i wanted to be one... i craved to be one...i tried to be one... with all love it happened... i have experienced the oneness... it so wonderful... i have announced it to my heart...with all greatness... its so wonderful.... a breeze pass through us... it made us wonder how did that happened... it happened again and again.... the space for the soothing breeze.... turned a space for wind... that space is our ego... god don't allow our ego to exceed our love for a wild wind to pass through us !!!

Who is your favorite person? Good, great. This is the same question one of my trainers asked when I was at the age of 15. I said, my mother... that was true. He again asked, I have repeated my answer. Then he asked, if I give a group photo including you in it, whose photo will you be searching? Answer is obvious, yes. I will check for my picture. That was a realisation, I love myself more than anyone. That is true with of you. It may change only in our teenage, when we see that girl who will be butter for our bread and sugar for our tea. again that is temporary, isnt it? I have decided to love myself. I have tried to do justice for my studies, but not very studious. I have passed my course with 33 % marks. More importantly I have developed a dream to be successful and be a nice human being. I stopped all my notorious activities and become a honest person. Even now I am carrying my honesty. I am born and bought up in Kerala in a middle class family, after graduation I have move...

Finally I moved away from Bangalore. the city tune me to the person I am today. It was my graduation days, a lot of seniors and cousin talks a lot of Bangalore. Those days, city took a transformation from city of garden to city of IT. There was plenty of opportunity in bangalore, especially all engineers were flying to bangalore for jobs. There were many IT companies waited for the talents. Same time a lot of people got opportunity to travel around the world as part of international assignments and on site jobs. Smart people from that group, earned overseas jobs. They never come back, they settled their life there. I didnt have any dream to travel outside or anything. I didnt have any particular aim in my life but wanted to be successful in my life. I have CA and MBA options in front of me. To find CA coaching centers and opportunities, I have traveled to Chennai. The sun burn heat killed me, that was the day in my life drank maximum quantity of water. But the tough syllabus,did...

Confection :) Do you know how much I love you? I don’t think…. But I won’t blame you. Because I never appreciated the work you do… I never made you believe that I respect you… I never straight to tell you what I like in you… But haven’t you notice when I call you to eat out or allow you to shop…. I know that is very rare. I am asking you that because I wanted to appreciate you. I don’t have any right time for that… We can enjoy the sip of wine when we are at middle of busy work. Busy work should be enjoyed, If not, better don’t be busy. I want to you be peaceful even if you are busy or not. If you are busy and tensed, I prefer you don’t take up responsibility. Oh my love, I can accept your tensed mode. That adds more electricity to my head… When I shouted, it is not my anger at you. It is my outburst due to love’s worry. It is my inability to see my love’s tension. It is pain to see my love’s pain. So, you do what you can enjoy. If you ca...

Hey Happy Mother’s Day!! One memory I have on initial stages of life is her tips on how to write 8. It was my kinder garden days. My teacher started teaching writing numerical. I had real trouble to write 8 with my little finger. I did face major issue to rotate pencil. I did tell her about this. She tried to teach me, she have tried holding my hand and made me write. I don’t remember exactly well what all she did. Finally, after she failed everything, she gave a short cut to write 8 without much rotation to my little finger. She knew that I was good at rotating my finger to write 0. She asked me to draw 2 small zero’s one above other, touching each other.    Success!! Little I produced numerical 8, my own for the first time.  Now, that was something beyond writing 8, one the best life lessons from my Amma.   Happy mother’s day

I met a talkative girl in my toastmasters club. She is very good at her English language; she has good grammar, right ascent and ability to pronounce the words. She is vocal about right use of English among our club. Thanks to her schooling, she had strict English teachers.   I am on the other hand; do not have any sense of language. I am not even sure of right use of my mother tongue, so English don’t even ask. I have tried a lot to improve my English but realize the difficult to speak genuine English. Even then I have learned to express myself with all grammatical and pronouncing issues.  My meeting with some Middle East people gave me extra confidence. Some people say, if Americans can speak American English and English men can speak British English, then why cant a Keralite speak ‘Mallu English’. It gave me confidence to next level but I didn’t want to ignore improvement. Definitively, work on my confidence than having right English. Last week, we all went for an an...

My wife and I were having a serious discussion last day. I got a job in Mumbai; my wife is worried about shifting to Mumbai and an appropriate school for my daughter. She list out the criteria and specification in new place. She had so many questions for me to get more clarity. I was glue less for all the questions. Our daughter was playing in between us. She was in the middle of us and running around. My wife had 100 questions and 100 worries about whole the situation around her. I told her to keep all the worries aside and wait for some time for us to get the clarity about our stay in Mumbai. Because our stay supposed to be arrange by the new company. But she is not able control her curiosity. Since she was not getting much answers from me, she turn to our daughter and asked which school you want to go? Our daughter said, ‘ummmm I want ‘Chor’ (Rice)’! That’s all! 

Do not cheat yourself! That is the dialogue from my father when I justify myself. I didn’t understand that dialogue when I was kid, my small life explain to me why I should nt cheat myself. Dear TMs and Guest, Good Morning,  I always wanted to be successful but I am fearful to take risk. When play my Table tennis at office, I realized it. I learned to smash the ball but in the real game I was scared to hit it. My mind asked this, can I hit on the table without hitting the net? This is my life always, I have experimented with my life, but I have this self doubt when I have to smash. I am here to practice myself to live in present without worrying am I be successful or not. I was born in early ’80, in Nov. I am a Sagittarian. My wife says, I have all the characteristic of a Sagittarian, not sure in what angle. When I was child, during vacation we all gathered in my mom’s house. We all grand children’s gathered, the elder grand children look after small one. 2 of my elder cousin...

Today is vishu. It is New Year for Keraletes, childhood we used to celebrate vishu with crackers and good food. Again it is another reason for entire family to get together. Yesterday itself I have made a plan to get up early and make  Ambalappuzha Palpayasam . This is the recipe I have seen in a cookery show, recently. Since my family is in my parents place, it is very lone life going on for me. They are in my native town from last one month, now I am missing them badly. I feel like staying in office for hours and don’t have any interest to eat food from outside or cook at home. Having a peaceful life all the time is not interesting. Yesterday itself, I have arranged all the necessary items. 500 ml of milk, sugar and rice. Same time I had arranged vishu kanni (first sight) in front pooja area. If my goal is set clear, I am always dot on that. I got up with alarm at 5 am, saw the Vishu Kanni without any issues and started with Payasam making. I followed the recipe correc...

If you want to be successful in your life, you should have dreams!! Somebody said this, I have taken it literally. I had dream, I had many dreams to be successful. My childhood I have dedicated myself to become Sachin Tendulkar. I stood in front of mirror and practiced Sachin’s straight drive. Without entering in to cricket ground and finally I have left the dream of becoming a cricket player in front of mirror. During my college days I have met my physical trainer and she introduced me to world of Kabadi, my heavy and flexible body helped me to become college team captain and lead the college team to win university matches. I was clear, Kabadi is not my ultimate aim in my life. I have to study to be successful in life. I have studied to pass the exams and ensure decent grades and completed post-graduation. I have got a break in joining Reuters immediately after my education. I had a question in one of interviews, where do you see yourself after 5 years? I was clear and told ...

It was a holiday, my wife and I were having our breakfast. Our little one was playing around the dining room. My daughter was playing and dancing along with the song played in television. She basically needs attention from us. My wife gave attention to the song played in television and to our daughter. I was busy eating, and gave attention to both my stars. That song was an old Malayalam song, on screen two heroes playing with children on the street. It was quiet famous song for those season. A song from a movie called Kabulivalla. To add more spice to the situation I told a lie to my beloved wife that wont hurt anyone. I was there in that film song. I told her that, I was one among in that children. She believed, I didn’t exaggerated much. If you lie without much stories and stick to one modest story, people believe that. Especially wife! I didn’t realise, how much this story has influenced in her and created an impression about me? I realised it, after a long time. We have vi...

I was the most handsome guy on this planet earth. You may wonder what the news in that; Nikhil is the most handsome even now…. Contest chair, TMs and guest good evening !! When I was in colleague all girls admire me like crazy, don’t ask me about young teachers, they could take their eye off from me. I was a six pack holder! Salman Khan inspired by my physic. When walk in the college garden, even flowers lost the charm and they envy at me. Totally I was the rocking star…. Aspiring Mr. Universe; in Studies, aspiring rank holder and in sports, aspiring international level sports man. What more is needed to be treated like a god in the colleague. All girls want to talk to me. Some girls, they just need my smile. One girl among that was different; she was most beautiful in my colleague. Even she falls for me, but her inferiority complex she could not express to me. Poor girl wrote a message to me. She said, I can’t hold my love any more. And I know I am not good enough for you. So I ...