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I forgot my brothers birthday again !!

Yesterday was my brothers birthday as per our hindu calender. We used to follow that; in fact I and my brother never know our actual birthdays till recent years. I have confirmed my birthday couple of years back after I referred to my astrology records.

I remember my brothers birthday that we celebrated in 1995 some days before my mother passed away. during those days she was getting tired and we all including she thought that it is because of excess fat. So she herself started excerises but she used to get exhausted. She started taking rest once she came back from her work.  She is a person who never take rest; she used to make herself busy in kitchen or doing any paper work for my fathers business. But since it was sudden change no one really care even she as well.

I dont remember the date; but it was end of Nov or beginning of Dec. My brothers birthday. in the evening he called his friend home for dinner. Mother told him to take them to a hotel or call them on some other day. all are a vague memory.... but he insisted to prepare food that day. thats the beauty of a mother , she finally prepared dinner. I helped her  grate coconut; there was green peas curry... all vegetarian dishes. I dont remember other items. She didnt really show her anger much but I could realise that she had stretched herself too much.

after couple of days my father took her to a hospital for check up and realised that she has some serious issue. from there doctors referred her to another big hospital in different city. since december we had our 2nd term exams so I and brother stayed back at home and my father took her to the hospital. first they went to her sisters house in that city and that afternoon she got serious and admitted in a hospial near there.

I think i should stop here as there are so many memories coming back to me. to be frank this is something which I dont want to think about . But always it will come to my heart especially these days it is coming very often. One reason may be the fact that my daughter doesnt have a grand mother who can love / care for her.

After my mother passed away I have completely stopped celebrations. I have stopped celebrating my birthdays; in fact I never celebrated my birthday as per our  calender, most of the time I am not even realising that day. now thanks to my friends and wife I am celebrating my actual birthday. Not sure I am really doing conciously though. if I think too much still I can feel my mother struggle for preparing food.

this may a reason I always forget to wish him on his birthdays.  I know my mother have done all with full heart so why should I feel bad. but I want to celebrate my birthday in lighter note for this memory...

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  1. Mothers love and care is something which we can not change it with something else, its always something very precious my dear brother.But you have a beautiful life and caring people around you... keep good memories in your hearts FD and forget about the rest.Life will be always good for you and we are always there with you....

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