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I had a very but temper until last couple of months. One point of time I have decided that I wont through my tantrum any more. That I have felt the really a refreshing like I alcoholic stop himself drinking forever and he is getting up in an early morning without any drop of alcohol inside in him. I was so happy. I could feel each moment of that day.
But I was not successful. I got temper again. After that I had a talk with of my friend on this issue. She told me some secret technique how to face my life. I am doing it ever since then. It is working out. Thanks to all the situations, I was on my fasting for one of my pilgrim trip. My regular visit to temple and my chanting all contributed positively to keep my cool.
Successfully about 2 months I haven’t raised my voice or show any sign of my temper. I will not share my technique of controlling anger now. I will share that once I take this as my habit.
Today, somehow I have lost my temper due to a silly issue. I has shouted at my wife for getting late for a doctor visit in the morning. I knew she was tired, I knew she was down with her pain. She was going through a back pain and stomach ache from last two days post her sports day at her office. She could have told me to take her hospital during weekends, or take rest without going out during weekends. All of these could have gone run in to my mind. Yesterday night she had a doubt of appetites and food poison. I told her to visit doctor at that time, but she was on the other hand searching on the net for details and symptoms for each illness. Today morning I was excepted her to get ready to hospital early but after a certain time also she was getting ready. That got my irritated and made my to show my tantrum.
Good thing, I have done this time is.... I have managed my anger and controlled myself. It didn’t take me to a bad way for the rest of the day. I am glad with that. I am happy with my reaction to this incident. But I think I should learn to my master of my faith. I should have define what time I want to take her to hospital and get her ready by the decide time.

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